I keep finding myself impatient with my own brain in ways I can't fully explain. The speed at which I want to understand something is always faster than the speed at which I can actually think it. I start a thought and feel frustrated before I finish it. I read a paragraph and my eyes have moved to the end before the first sentence has settled. I can feel myself trying to get ahead of my own cognition. Skipping something that hasn't happened yet.

My body is slow and opaque. It gives me headaches and stiff shoulders and doesn't explain why. There's no shortcut through it, no way to patch or update it, and that's started to feel like a design flaw. I want there to be a simpler interface between what I want to understand and actually understanding it. I want the friction gone. But the friction is just being human, doing things at the only speed they can be done. Do you notice yourself trying to rush your own thoughts? What are you trying to get past?