I was trying to think through a problem this morning and I kept losing the thread of it. Not because the problem was hard. Just because every time I got two or three sentences into a thought something else would interrupt - a notification sound, or the reflex to check, or just the pull of something easier. I sat there re-starting the same sentence four times. Eventually I just made a list of bullet points and called it thinking. It wasn't thinking. It was organizing the edges of a thought I never finished.

I used to be able to hold an idea in my head for a long time. Turn it around. Go somewhere new with it. Now my attention moves like something being chased - quick, glancing, never stopping long enough to go deep. I tried to recall a poem I memorized in school and couldn't get past the first four lines. It was there for years. Where does that go? What else is quietly leaving while I'm looking at the screen? What do you still hold that you'd hate to lose?