I close the blinds to keep the glare off the screen. I open them again in the evening and realize the light has already gone. This has been true for the last few days. Maybe longer. I'm not keeping track of the sun the way I used to. I used to have a real relationship with the time of day - the afternoon light on the floor in winter was different from summer and I noticed it without meaning to. Now I just notice whether the screen is too bright or not bright enough and adjust accordingly.

I go to bed around 2am and lie there for an hour while my brain does something that isn't sleep. My eyes close but the thinking keeps going, in the same shallow fast loops as the scrolling. My body has forgotten how to shift down into the quiet. It just idles at the same speed and eventually I wake up tired and the cycle continues. When did you last sleep long and deep and wake up feeling like you'd actually been somewhere? What would it take to get back there?