I sat by the window this afternoon and noticed I was looking at the sky the way I look at a screen - searching it for something to engage with, waiting for something to update. The clouds were doing that slow, continuous thing clouds do, which used to seem like movement but now just seems like a very low frame rate. I sat there for a while feeling oddly dissatisfied. Like the sky wasn't quite doing enough. Like it needed more going on.

I used to be able to just look out a window and be somewhere. Now there's this expectation that the view will be interactive, that something will change or respond. The world doesn't load. It just is. And I've lost the patience for things that just are. I think I've been confusing stimulation with presence for long enough that the quiet of an actual afternoon feels like a malfunction. Have you noticed yourself needing more to happen than is actually happening? When did stillness start feeling like something was broken?